His timing, not mine.
I keep on telling myself this because I believe it's true. Ecclesiastes 3:1 says "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens." My doula journey has been something that I've forged mostly on my own without the help of others. I decided to pursue it, I sought out a workshop, I made an Instagram and posted about it on Facebook, I reached out to Chicago Family Doulas, I got the job, I decided to move to Chicago temporarily...etc, etc. You get the point: I haven't had much help. And I do not say that to boast, because truly, having a mentor during that time would have been super nice! But, now I'm in a place where I have a doula mentor (my boss at CFD, Anna) and have started to make connections with other doulas via social media. I'm starting to work my way into the birth world, one step at a time. This is not to say that I haven't had the SUPPORT of others, because I've had plenty of that! Especially my friends, who encourage me, and my mom, who is letting me live with her in Chicago while I'm here.
Back to the whole God's timing thing, I've really had to trust in that recently. In February, I sent an email out to many doula agencies in Pittsburgh with my resume and information in hopes that someone would be looking to hire a doula. Everyone I heard back from was not hiring at the time. I was discouraged. I believed that no one would EVER hire me because I'm twenty years old-- what do I know about birth?? So, the next step was reaching out to a volunteer organization, Genesis of Pittsburgh, who said YES! We need more doulas! I was so happy, but for financial reasons, it would be nice to make a little money off of this work. And, I didn't know if anyone at Genesis even needed a doula.
Fast-forward about a month to when the pandemic started to really affect us. Most doula agencies had decided to offer virtual services, so I reached out to a doula agency in Chicago, asking if they needed more doulas, thinking I could stay in Pittsburgh and be a virtual doula for an agency. To my utter dismay, my current boss replied to my email "Yes! When can you talk?" I didn't think I would even get a response!!! It was in that moment that I realized nothing was keeping me in Pittsburgh since the rest of the term + summer school got moved to online, so I thought, why not just go to Chicago for the time being?? After talking to Anna the next day, she hired me on the spot. HIS timing, not mine. God knew that it was perfect timing because I had been thinking about what to do for the summer, and He gave me this wonderful gift of having the opportunity of being mentored by Anna and working with CFD.
In August, I will return to Pittsburgh for round three (and a half) of nursing school, where I will volunteer with Genesis. I'm hoping to send my resume out to agencies again once I get more experience in hopes that I might get a different response, but I know that God is in control. What He sees best for me will happen, and the hardest part is trusting in that. For everything, there is a season.